I had a very ADD afternoon yesterday. At least, I think what I experienced was due to my ADD-ness. I was very efficient with my morning chores and my hour of de-junking the house; even walked the dogs before lunch. And then...
And then: an unscheduled afternoon. I didn't have any appointments. No errands I had to run. Nothing pressing that *had* to get done that day. Yikes! I panicked. Yes, truly, panic. Where other people would have stretched their arms to the almost-sunny sky and rejoiced, I was at a complete loss for what to do. Not because I didn't have things to do. Au contraire, mes amis, my To Do list is always full. It is a thing to behold. Why, Superman himself couldn't accomplish in one day what I usually put on my To Do list for an average afternoon. No, the problem is prioritizing: how do I decide what to tackle next on my task scroll? I spent an entire half hour imagining myself spending the afternoon, or at least big chunks of time, on various things on the list. I was paralyzed with indecision. I auditioned and then rejected various options. Too much choice is a bad, bad thing for little ADD-stricken me.
So here's how I understand the brain battle in Attention Deficit: either I can't focus enough to pay attention to one thing, my brain keeps derailing its train of thought, and I get little accomplished or feel overwhelmed/stressed/instantly tired. OR (and this initially surprised me) I go into hyper-focus, where the one thing I am doing becomes the only thing that matters, and the world could crumble all around me and I wouldn't notice. (Attention Deficit = hyper-focus? Who knew?)
I think a little of both of those things happened to me in my unscheduled afternoon. I got 3 things done in 3 hours.
1. Went to WalMart to look for one item (too much stimulus, makes me very uncomfortable to have to look around; much better if I know the exact location and item ahead of time). Didn't find the item (Easy-Bake Oven replacement pans), but found three other things to buy. In an hour.
2. Went to Buffalo Exchange to look for a new pair of Dansko clogs. (Have decided the old pair is just too big--tired of wearing them with two pairs of socks!) Spent almost an hour. Did not spend money.
3. Went to Goodwill to look for a t-shirt. Found three t-shirts, two pairs of shoes (sadly, no replacement clogs, Dansko or otherwise), and lost way more than an hour. Talk about hyper-focus: those t-shirts, man. Don't know why a rack of t-shirts should make me go into a trance, but there you have it.
An unscheduled afternoon in the life of my ADD brain.